Rumors and the bar exams...

It has always been like this. Rumors there, rumors here, rumors everywhere.

I consider myself to be a level-headed individual. During crunch time, I hardly get frazzled (allow me to borrow your favorite word, Maf) and I'm usually the calm one. Rumors barely bother me, as I'm a firm believer in cold, hard facts.

My preparation for the bar however, was a different ballgame altogether. Weirdly, almost every little rumor had me panicking (and there were at least a hundred rumors during that time! From the identity of the examiners to the coverage of the exams... You name it, and I'm sure there was a rumor about it). Needless to say, I had my fair share of panic attacks during that time (you can ask my friends who were bothered by my frantic text messages and phone calls). I must admit though, that relative to my fellow barristers, I would still be classified as "the calm one". Hehehe. :-)

Now, after almost 6 months, the rumors are once again starting. This time, the rumors are about the date of the release of the bar exam results (March 22, 23, 27, 29... ARGH!). A few weeks ago, I would be able to laugh this off. Unlike my other friends who've had panic attacks as early as October (we took the bar, September!), I've been calmly (a part of me is actually eager and excited) waiting for the release of the bar exam results. These past few days however, I can actually feel my heart beating quite fast. I don't know if this is the beginning of a panic surge, or a mere acknowledgment of the fact that the rumored dates are nearing. For sure, the dark cloud looming over every barrister's head is getting darker with each day, and after much waiting (and hoping and praying, in my case at least) we'll know if our dream of becoming a lawyer (childhood dream for me!) will become a reality or not...

College Friends (A fun survey from my baby bro..)

Can you name 13 of ur friends in college that u can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 13 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first. No Cheating!!!

1. awee dacanay
2. daisy vargas
3. cheeky cristobal
4. chef borres
5. aileesa lim
6. sharon lu
7. ria caganda
8. pia oliveros
9. mike acaban
10. jehan lepail
11. nikki tablizo
12. simon lao
13. angie chong

*How did you meet 10?
Jehan-jehan shifted to LM from Econ. The lucky girl got assigned to our block. So yun...

*What would you do if you had never met 1?

Oh my. Awee is like a sister to me. She (and my other dear friends, of course) has kept me rock steady during difficult times. I'd be one big mess without her... I can't imagine life without her...

*What would you do if 6 and 2 date?

BWAHAHAHAHA. Daisy and Shalu? Unlikely couple... They're both heterosexuals, I don't think they'd go for each other. ;-) Hehehehe.

*Have you ever seen 4 cry?

Yes. There was even one time we were both crying in the Rizal Study Foyer... :-) Hehehehe.

*Do you think 10 is cute?
Cute? Not the best word to describe Jehan. Jehan's beautiful, not cute. There.

*How did you get to know 8?

She was my blockmate in English (B13!!!), then she shifted to LM (with lots of encouragement from me). The rest is history. :-)

*Would you ever go on a date with number 12?

Romantic date with Simon? I don't think so... But I'd have dinner and coffee with him any time. I adore Simon! One of sweetest guys around. :-)

*What's 7's Favorite color?

PINK!!! :-) I know for sure. If Ria had a choice, she'd be reincarnated as the Pink Power Ranger. :-)

*What would you do if 5 confessed he/she loved you?
I know Ailee loves me, and I love her. She's a dear friend, how can we not love each other? :-) (Right, ling? Baka kumontra ka, mapapahiya ako... :-P)

*Facts about 9:
1) He's 1/4 chinese, 1/4 español... (tama ba mike?)
2) He got suspended in grade 7 (as to why, go ask him)
3) He's a certified bading magnet

*Who is 4 going out with?
This guy from Rockwell, whom we have yet to meet... :-)

*What is number 5 to you?
She's a dear friend -- One of my sweetest, most thoughtful friends... :-)

* Would you ever live with 13?
Of course! ;-) Angie's one hell of a girl. I bet sobrang fun siya kasama.

*Is 2 single?
Unfortunately, yes. (Kasalanan nina Mike and Simon 'to! :-p)

*Where does 7 live?
She hails from Iriga, Bicol, but now (before she leaves for Delaware) she's staying with her brother in Alabang. :-)

*What do you think about 3?

She's one amazing girl-- smart and driven with the right amount of attitude and heart to boot... :-)

*What do you like about number 11?
She's a really, really sweet girl with not a single mean bone in her body. :-)

*Favorite Memory with 1?
OH MY. Super dami. I guess one favorite would be our lamon session in Don Henrico's-Libis (Aga Muhlach, hello! Hehehe.) Of course, I won't ever forget our Entablado days.... and our trip to Cebu last 2004. If I go into details, marami na sobra... :-) Hehehe.

*What's the nickname of 6?

Well, it's supposed to be Shalu. But I call her Talung (Why? Beats me!). :-) Hehehe.

*Describe 1:

A really complex individual. She can be as hard as a rock, or as soft and sweet as a marshmallow depending on the situation. One thing's for sure, you shouldn't hurt her friends, 'coz she'd run you over with her car if you do...

*Famous line of 7?
"I was sleeping like crazy."
"I was frazzled."

Gerard Butler would have been a better James Bond. :-)

Just a thought

Is it easy to move on? Is it easy to let go?

If not, how come some people expect moving on to be such an easy task? How come some people fault others who are somehow stuck in another place and time? How come some people throw around the words "letting go" and "moving on" as if it were as easy as learning the alphabet?

If it is actually easy, then maybe I'm the one with a different concept of letting go and moving on...

P.S. This is a delayed reaction to a comment posted in my friend's blog. I don't think I'm making sense here. I think I should gather my thoughts and make a better post, but for now, this will suffice. ;-) Hehehe.

Survey I got from my friend, Toie Bear

1. what kind of first impression do you think people have when they first see you?
That I'm friendly? :-) Hehehe. I really don't know, but I've some friends who say they thought of me as aloof the first time they saw me... (I'm not! I swear!)

2. what's one thing you like to do alone?
Watch TV or Read a good book. :-)

3. what is your favorite line to say when bored?
Nothing. When I'm bored, no words come out from my mouth (this says a lot considering I am very, very talkative).

4. What movie(s) made you cry?
Hmmmmmmm... Iyakin ako sa movies eh. I cried in A Bug's Life! :-) hehehe. Well, recent ones I remember crying over are: Waking the Dead, Torch Song Trilogy and A Moment to Remember. One movie which had me bawling my eyes out is The Classic. :-)

6. do you ever have to beg?
Nope. Home pride, ma-pride ako eh. :-)

7. what kind of books do you like to read
I read all kinds of stuff, from the likes of CS Lewis to the likes of Judith McNaught, depending on my mood.

8. do you think you're cute?
Nope... I don't think cute would be a word to describe me. :-)

9. do you have a problem changing clothes in front of your friends?
Yep. :-) I have body issues...

10. favorite communication method?
Text Messaging! -- same here!

11. do you care?
Yes. Even when I shouldn't be caring anymore, I still do...

12. what do you eat when you raid the fridge at night?
I hardly eat at night. But the rare moments that I do, I go for chips or nuts. :-)

13. if you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?
liposuction haha! =) -- same here! Tummy area to be more specific. :-)

15. describe your bed
big, comfortable enough -- ditto! :-)

16. spontaneous or planned?
I'd like to think I'm a planner, but my plans can change in a minute, so I guess I'm spontaneous... I don't think I'm making sense here... :-) Hehehe.

17. do you know how to play poker?
Yes, Texas Holdem!

18. what do you carry with you at all times?
Staples in my handbag are: Cellphone, Wallet, Hairbrush, and Hand Sanitizer

19. what do you miss most about being little?
the simple, mababaw things. no worries.-- I agree! I always say, I miss the simplicity of life as a kid... :-)

20. are you happy with your given name?
BWAHAHAHAHAHA :-) First name, okay pa... Second name, why oh why?!!!

21. how much would it take to give up the internet for 1 year?
1 year? A lot!!! A day nga lang nagkakaseparation anxiety na ako eh... ;-)

22. what color is your bedroom?
light yellow

23. have you ever been in a play?
Yep, in school. Didn't we all go through that? ;-)

24. do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
Like myself? Well, most of the time, yes... Believe in myself? Sometimes... But I wish I believed in myself all the time...

25. do homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?
Yes, when they get too makulit... It really irks me when they touch me. I have a thing against strangers getting tactile with me...

26. do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
BWAHAHAHAHA. Oo naman... ;-) May kokontra? Hehehe.

27. what is your ideal marriage location?
Tapos na kasal ko, so moot na etong tanong na to.

28. whats one instrument you wish you could play?
Violin. :-)

29. something you like and hate?
lawschool!!! -- same here!!!

30. whats one language you want to learn?
French! Although I wish I pursued my minor in Spanish Studies. :-)

31. have you ever pierced your body parts?
my ears -- same here!

32. do you have any tattoos?
Nope! Never!

34. whats one trait you hate in a person?
I hate it when people are duplicitous.

35. do you consider yourself materialistic?
Well, I find pleasure in a lot of worldly things... So I guess to a certain extent, yes. Heehee. :-)

36. what do you cook best?
Pomodoro pasta. :-)

37. do you cry in front of your friends?
very rarely. once or twice pa lang. -- same here! Although certain people have seen me cry several times... ;-) Heehee.

38. do you miss a friend right now?
Of course. Intensely... :-(

39. ideal place to live?
Makati! Near my favorite malls and restos! :-)

40. biggest wish?
To make all my dreams come true... :-)
I'm a perpetual dreamer...

Closer

Fell in love with the song the moment I listened to it. :-)

What If You

What if you
Could wish me away
What if you
Spoke those words today
I wonder if you'd miss me
When I'm gone
It's come to this, release me
I'll leave before the dawn
But for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you
But when the sun hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do
What if you
Could hear this song
What if I
Felt like I belong
I might not be leaving so soon
Began the night believing
I loved you in the moonlight
So, for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you
But when the sun hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do
I could've treated you better
Better than this
Well, I'm gone, this song's your letter
Can't stay in one place
So, for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you
But when the sun hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do

**********
One of my favorite songs by Joshua Radin

Back to Iyengar

Last Wednesday, I was invited by my friend Awee to do Iyengar yoga with her. Since I am not really busy these days, I agreed to go with her. After all, this would be my third time (or fourth, I'm not really sure) to do yoga with her. I was thinking, how hard can it get, right? I survived my other sessions, and as long as they won't make me do headstands, I'll be fine.

So Awee and I went to LKG Tower where the classes are held. We got there at around 5:45pm, since classes for Wednesday don't start until 6:30pm, we had more than enough time to change into our yoga attire (shorts!). After changing, Awee and I went inside the studio... Lo and Behold! Nobody else was there except me, Awee, the instructor and the secretary. Great! For a beginner like me (actually pseudo-beginner, since I attended two or three of their classes last year. Hehehe.), a really small class of three (3) isn't at all encouraging. That would mean greater scrutiny and more work... At that point, I was already beginning to feel pangs of cowardice, but I kept my poise and just kept telling myself, basta walang headstand, ok lang yan...

Awee and I went to our place in the room and set-up our area for class. We were quietly talking when Ameh (I dunno if I spelled her name right) walked in. Thank God! Nadagdagan kami. After setting-up her place, Ameh introduced herself to me and joined in on our conversation. In the course of it, she matter-of-factly says "Inversions daw tayo ngayon ah." I asked Awee if inversions meant what I thought it meant. She didn't outrightly answer, but she gave me this smile, this mischievous, wicked cum sympathetic smile... And I knew... I knew my worst yoga fears were coming true... WE WERE DOING HEADSTANDS!!! Waaaaaah!!! I was ready to pack-up and leave when the instructor (Popi) walked in and said we were going to start the class. Uh-oh... Too late. I can't leave now. And so I stayed... And stayed... And stayed... And stayed... And finished the entire session...

Surprisingly, it wasn't as bad as I imagined. Actually, it wasn't bad at all. Popi was a very understanding teacher; she understood my limitations as a beginner and did not force me to do things beyond my body's capacity. She provided much-needed encouragement for me to try my best. She helped me with the poses when she saw I was not executing them properly (even if at times, she couldn't help but laugh at how I was screwing up the pose. Hehe).

All in all, going back to Iyengar was fun. I enjoyed my yoga session in spite of my fear of headstands. And even if my muscles ache all over, I intend to make a weekly thing out of this (wala na akong excuse not to do yoga, last year I had the bar as an excuse). Yoga makes me feel rejuvenated and relaxed. It has this wonderful calming effect on me (similar to what I feel after a massage) that I just love... And if I end up with a vavavoom figure, that would be a very welcome bonus! :-)