A Valentine Offering... HAHAHA :-)

Have you ever been in love?

Horrible isn't it?

It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.

You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...

You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.

Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness,so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.

It hurts.
Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

Nothing should be able to do that.
Especially not love.

I hate love.


- rose walker, THE SANDMAN (neil gaiman)

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This was originally posted by a batchmate of mine in Friendster. I reposted it here not because I totally agree with it but because I believe there is some truth to it...

Yes, love can hurt. I believe however that the beauty of love lies in this possibility of great pain.

Isn't it amazing when the person you love--the same person who has wandered into your walls and made you vulnerable, the same one who can easily break your heart into tiny little pieces and cause you "real, gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart" pain--chooses to lovingly take care of you? Isn't it beautiful when a person to whom the power of inflicting great pain has been given chooses not to exercise such and does the exact opposite? This, to me, is the beauty of love-- when another person is protected and shielded from immense pain by the very same person who is given the sole power to inflict such pain.

I swear, I am still very much a romantic! :-) Hehehe. (Judge me not, Ling... Hahahaha.)

My buns! My buns!

After days of running after the seemingly-elusive Delifrance coffee buns, fate finally gave in and allowed us meet...

It started with a meeting...

I was supposed to meet a friend in Starbucks-Greenbelt 1 noontime yesterday. I was there on time (naks!), but he, who was supposed to be in the area, was nowhere in sight. I was getting a bit bored and restless after my 10-minute stay in Starbucks so I decided to text him and tell him that I'd meet him in Delifrance instead. I thought it would be better to spend my time finding my buns instead of just sitting in Starbucks...

And as fate would have it... I found my buns!:-)

The moment I reached Delifrance's counter, I saw them... My beautifully tanned buns! I immediately lined up to buy... One? Two? A box? After shortly deliberating on it, I decided to buy just a couple. Two would be just right. It would be enough satisfy my craving without going overboard on carbs (I am, after all, trying to shed a few pounds). The buns looked so delicious, I was tempted to eat them as soon as the cashier handed them to me, but I resisted... I couldn't eat them in haste. Everything has to be right...

So I patiently waited and went about my day, eagerly anticipating my Delifrance coffee bun experience.

Finally! I got home. I wasted no time and immediately reheated the buns (45 seconds in the toaster, I was told) and ate them... Yummy! The bread was soft and the center had a buttery consistency that was just perfect. The coating had the right amount of texture and coffee taste that made the whole coffee bun experience complete... Oh, the delight! :-)

I finished my buns in less than 12 hours (so much for cutting on carbs!) and had more bought today... I guess it's safe to say I won't be losing weight anytime soon. Hahahaha. :-)

It is a restless moment.
She has kept her head lowered,
to give him a chance to come closer.
But he could not, for lack of courage.
She turns and walks away.

That era has passed.
Nothing that belonged to it exists any more.

He remembers those vanished years.
As though looking through a dusty window pane,
the past is something he could see, but not touch.
And everything he sees is blurred and indistinct.

- in the mood for love.

The Blower's Daughter

I just had to post this. Beautiful song... Beautiful Video... What more can I ask for?

Ranting...

Somebody once close to me said that I rant quite often. Well, considering the number of things that had my blood pressure shoot up this week, I guess he was right...

So allow me to rant big time, and make a list of the things that annoyed me the past few days. I really just need to get this out of my system. Otherwise, I'd be breeding negative energies, and that's against my life philosophy. Hehehe.

1. Mike Defensor's Political Ad. Geez!!! It's a dumb, useless, uninformative ad. To those of you who are fortunate enough not to have seen it, I'll describe it to you: It starts with a girl (I think it's Keanna Reeves) and a Manny Pacquiao lookalike calling out 'tol 'tol 'tol to Mike Defensor. He then dramatically looks back and waves to them. After, the girl and the guy in unison call out: Mike Defensor, Mike Defensor. He looks back and smiles. The camera then focuses on his face, and after a few seconds, out comes the text: 'tol, Mike Defensor. Argh! Annoying! How is that supposed to help the voters?! Whatever happened to platform and credentials?! I'm sorry if I had to describe the darned thing, but it was a necessary evil to get my point across. Hehehe.
   
2. Mike Arroyo's stint at the House of Representatives. The man married to the president (I can't call him the First Gentleman, I don't think he's deserving of the title) is a disgrace. That episode with Alan Peter Cayetano just validates the fact that he is just that... A disgrace. One thing is for sure, I am from the Ateneo and I am ashamed of you, Mike Arroyo.
3. Richard Gomez's Belo Ad. Along Edsa-Guadalupe is a billboard of Richard Gomez advertising the Belo Medical Group. What baffles me though is the text. It says: One Hope, One Vision, One Nation. Somebody, please explain to me how this promotes the Belo Medical Group!!! Geez. I've never been a fan of Richard Gomez (I think he's one conceited, self-righteous wannabe), but if he has political ambitions (which I think is quite obvious from the Belo Ad) why can't he be upfront about it?!!! I can at least give that much credit to Mike Defensor.
   
4. Gretchen Barretto. God! The woman can't seem to keep her mouth shut! This thing with Lani Mercado just proves one thing: Money can't buy class.
5. Coffee Buns. Actually, this didn't make my blood pressure rise, but I got a bit of a letdown yesterday when I couldn't find Delifrance's Coffee Buns in Glorietta. *sigh* Lori featured the coffee buns in her blog a few days ago, and since then I've been craving for them. Hmmmmmmm... I guess I'll just have to crave for a few more days...
   

Well, that's enough ranting for now. I hope I won't be ranting for a few more months. Hehehe. ;-)

Some quote

"In the end only three things matter: how fully you lived, how deeply you loved, and how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you."

I think this quote sums up the important things in life quite beautifully.

Samson

This song captivated me the first time I listened to it. The melody and the lyrics (especially the lines "You are my sweetest downfall... I loved you first...") were just too much to resist that I ended up buying my first ever CD, Begin to Hope by Regina Spektor. Thankfully I didn't end up regretting the purchase as the album turned out great. The song selection was beautiful (for lack of a better term) and I ended up loving several songs in the collection ("Fidelity" and "On the Radio" come to mind). Regina Spektor is truly a gifted artist, and one thing's for sure... She has a fan in me. ;-)